In Need of Bravery

Okay, it's weighing on my mind, and I just need to do it.

I need to compose that letter to BH's birthparents, to be sent directly to their home. This is a follow up to my previous posts called "Crud, crud, crud!"

What is my objective? To send them a letter offering to make our required letter/picture updates sent directly to them.

Why am I shaking nervously over this? Because up to this point, I don't know how much, if at all, his birthparents have gotten the previous updates. Those have all been sent to the now-defunct adoption agency, which they would have needed to go and pick up. It was a neutral territory, and very common in adoptions for adoption agencies to be the neutral third party. Now that ABC is gone, that neutrality is gone. Best scenario, they have the updates, and are mad that ABC shut down. Worst scenario, they haven't gone to get the updates, have moved on, and would feel intruded upon with this weird letter from me in the mail directly to their home.

What can I do? Send the letter in very gentle wording, inviting, and encouraging. I will also send the letter with my attorney's return address on it. Why? So if junk flies, he'll be my first line of defense, and he offered!

Why else am I shaky? Honestly, these are extremely nice, hard working people from all that I know of them, although I have never met them. I don't want my letter, which may come out of nowhere for them, to upset them. Or upset the whole "we've moved on" thing that we all hope happens to our kid's birthparents. I don't want it to take them back to the hard spot they were in when BH was born.

So, prayers please! I need to do it soon, because his next update is coming up. So are my taxes, so let's not talk about the checkbook that needs my immediate attention. That is happening Monday night.